5 Chemos Down, 1 Chemo To Go

Can I just say..."WOOOOOO WHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!"  I am so excited to almost be done with this chemo.  I went in today for my fifth treatment, and now I only have one more to go on Feb 22!!  So excited.  I had a great treatment day.  I got to visit with a sweet friend of mine that I met at my last treatment.  I am so thankful for the friendships that I have made through this.  Especially friends in the chemo chairs, becuase the doctors won't let your family stay back there with you during your treatment, and it really makes the time fly by and makes me happy to have someone to talk to.  I got another great report from the doctor today.  She can't feel that nasty old ranky tumor!! Isn't that great!??!!  Thank you God.  Other good news is that I finally got my plastic surgeon picked out this past week, and my surgery date is set for April 3rd.  I am really thankful to have my game plan together so that I don't have to think about it anymore until then.  This guy was my third plastic surgeon and I was just about ready to forget about the whole reconstruction bc I didn't like what they were telling me I needed to do.  I also met with my radiation oncologist and we have our game plan for radiation after the surgery.  The radiation is what was causing complications with the reconstruction, but I think we have it figured out now. 

I did something the other day that I never thought I would do.  I left work one day last week when the weather was nice, and I took the doors and windows off the Jeep, and as soon as I got out on 280 I pulled off my wig and drove home bald!!  It was a little unnerving at first, but then it was really liberating!!  It felt great!  I caught a couple people do at double-take, but that's okay.  I probably would too.  It's not everyday you see a hot bald woman driving a smokin hot Jeep!  lolol!  Just kidding.  I was actually turning into Chelsea and heard some guy who just did a double-take say "Dang!"  Not sure if it was a good dang or a bad one, but I was cracking up.  I really enjoyed that Jeep ride.  The whole time I had my worship music blasting and I was just singing and thanking God for all that He is doing in my life through this trial.  My heart was just overflowing with thankfulness.  I couldn't care less about my hair or what I looked like.  It just felt so...complete.  I don't even know if that's the right word to describe what I felt.  God is drawing me deeper and deeper into a place of satisfaction in Him alone, and I love it.  Nothing compares.

I was writing thank you cards during my treatment today, and as I wrote, I was reminded of all that so many people have been doing to support me during this time.  It overwhelmed me all over again.  I am so blown away, especially at the support that I have received from work.  I have never seen or heard anything like it.  I have saved all my emails, all the little notes and all the gifts, and I treasure all of the prayers and conversations.  Sometimes it is hard for me not to start balling my eyes out at work when I talk to people about all this, and I hardly ever cry!  In the past there have been situations and stuff happen around me, and the people around me start crying, and I hardly ever cry, and I feel so cold hearted, but I just can't cry! But I have cried more in the past three months than I have in a long time...and almost all of the tears are tears of joy, not sorrow.  And some of the tears are from the chemo making my eyes water...another goofy side effect.  lol!  It's not just work that I have to thank, but my sweet family and my church family and pastors, and my friends.  I had the absolute best day with my mom this past Saturday.  So much fun to just hang out with my mom and to talk and laugh and pray and shop and eat together.  And my most amazing wonderful rock and leader of a husband.  He has been working so hard lately for work, and still taking care of me and the babies, especially during my last treatment, and making sure that everyone has what they need.  So thankful for how he faithfully prays over us and for how he loves and provides for us.  I respect him more than any other man I know.

Lets see...I've rambled on for way too long.  I could keep going, and I just have so much on my heart to share, and not enough time in the day to blog.  Thank you for reading and keeping up with me, even during dry blog spells, and thank you sooooo much for your prayers.  :O)  Please pray with me over this next three weeks and agree with me that these nasty side effects won't come near me.  Please pray the same for my sweet friend Nancy who got the same meds as me today and who is fighting this battle too.  Good night everyone!!  I pray blessings over you all!!! 

Here's picture of me and my little buddy when I got home from work after my Jeep ride.  I love that little man.