Merry Christmas

I hope that everyone had a Christ-filled Christmas.  Mine was great.  Soooo thankful for Emmanuel.  How horrible my life would be without God.  Since my last post, I had my third of six chemo treatments.  Half way there!!  My sister in law Maria came with me, and they actually let her sit with me through most of it.  We had fun.  Took goofey pictures, and she kept me laughing.  Thanks Tia Ria.  Things have been going really well.  My doctor told me that she could not feel the tumor anymore in one of the places where she had felt it before.  Praise God, my Healer!!  I have definitely been way more tired this time than before.  My babies are wearing me out physically, but thankfully, I have had so much help from my wonderful family!  It is so hard for me to ask for help, and rather frustrating at times because I just want to do something myself.  But I have had to learn to suck it up, and ask for help, and I am so blessed to have people around me that genuinely love me and want to help.  Christmas day I started feeling crummy, but by today, I am feeling better.  I have been yawning excessively, and actually got a cramp in my chin muscle from yawning so much.   You know how it feels when you get a Charlie horse in your foot and your toes get all cramped up??  Well that happened in my chin…craaaazaaaaaay!  Pretty comical if you ask me. 

I won’t type much more for now, but I just want to say how thankful I am to God for my life, all included.  This experience has not caused my life to come to a screeching halt.  It hasn’t made me stop living the life I wanted.  It has actually made me feel more alive than I ever have before.  How awesome that being face to face with death can bring more life?  It’s a paradox.  I now sing louder, cry harder, love deeper, pray more fervently, and all that and everything!  With each passing day I want to be nearer to God than I ever was before, and I am nearer to God now than I ever have been before.  I want so much more of God and His purpose than I had in my life prior to cancer, and I will have it.  Thank you God for all that you are.  Thank you for the work that you are doing in my life.  Thank you thank you thank you.